Slices through flesh, goes deep into vital organs
Lungs, heart, stomach
–Breath trapped in chest
–Hot acid in belly
Open up word
Open heavy door
Darkness, spider web, dust whirls up into nose
Inhale dank smell
cat urine, mildew
Feet “clunk, clunk, clunk…”
Eyes adjust to darkness
Back of head aches
Broken picture frames, torn curtains, twisted furniture, strewn cushions, bulging stuffing Empty socket in ceiling, lampshades singed with dirt
What do I want to accept?
These broken memories
My own feelings
Empty house with a tub that doesn’t drain, light fixtures that spark when turned on, walls covered in mold–
A cat who chews his fur, gnaws his skin–
A woman who rocks and moans–
Friends who come with self-help books and chicken soup–
Daughters, mother, women to support¬–
Therapy, Disney World, Health Spa
She doesn’t laugh for a year.
Thought the battle ended when he left.
War had just begun.
Hand to Hand combat has ceased.
Now a cold war.
Step outside the chilly battle
Choose a side
Years travel by now like leaves on a stream.